Nic sat beside me once more, with mom to my left and dad on her left. The Moon's, Alpha, Luna, Zaryn and Deacon sat around the other end along with Grace..... and her evil alpha spawn inside her.

My wolf seems to be making appearances in my narrative now...

Alpha Blake sat a phone in the middle of the desk before taking his seat once more. I noticed Deacon and Zaryn had been glaring at each other all night long.. Grace avoided eye contact with Nic as he gripped his chair staring at her.. or trying not to stare at her.. there was tension between dad and Alpha Blake.. and Zaryn cant take his eyes off me. It makes those shattered parts of my heart vibrate with an intensity. The tension was so thick in the room.

"Okay. I know we need to address the elephant in the room now. It seems all of you have concerns and i wamt to be able to work through them all." Alpha Blake begins. "So who would like to start first?"

We all glance around the table. I wasnt going to say a thing. I had my feelings hurt enough for the night and unless everyone wanted to deal with my wolf, then i just needed to stay silent. Suddenly Deacon sat up straight and devided to be the first to speak.

My stomach coiled within itself as i noticed his posture.

"I will." He seemed so confidant. "I want the ban removed from my and Novas friendship. Its ridiculous that i cant see my best friend because this.. this.. unworthy female comes prancing on our territory claiming she got knocked up by Zaryn and it "upsets" his wolf. We are all upset! But taking away from Nova is a bad move dad. You are hurting her. Punish Zaryn. Not her or i." His hard glare at his father sent excitment through me. And through my wolf. He is fighting for my honor.

"I agree" Nic supplied.

"As do i" my dad interjected.

Mom and Luna nod their heads.

Sighing heavily, Alpha Blake took out a piece of paper. "Very well. Nova, you and Deacon may be friends and continue on as you were."

A low growl sounded, shaking the table. My eyes snapped up to the source to see Zaryn looking beyond pissed. He eyed his brother before shifting his gaze to me. Before he could say anything, Blake beat him to it.

"Zaryn. You will stay away from your brother for now. And if you know whats good for you, away from Nova as well. I know this isnt what everyone wants, but Zaryn you decided to make that mistake and im trying to do the right thing now. You all have to understand that Grace is an alphas only daughter. Im trying to see it this way.. if i had a daughter.. Zaryn its your pup so you have to do the right thing. She needs an alpha mate to succeed her father. I understand its causing problems for our own pack heriarchy but the right thing is the right thing. I dont think the moon will let this pup be born if im being honest but we have to play the feild like we should."

My jaw dropped as did Zaryn's. Alpha didnt demand us not to be around each other, but he suggested it. He also made his beliefs known about Grace's pup. Her face was as white as a ghost.. eyes wide and blurred.

"Grace, here..." Alpha Blake continued, seeming annoyed to the third degree. "has called her father, Alpha Conrad of the North, behind my back and against my judgement, to let him know that she overheard you, Zaryn, say you will refuse to mark her.. and that if the pup is born, you will co-parent until he is ten in which he and Grace will return to the north to begin his training, spending summers with you and leaving the option open for Nova."

My mouth fell open once more and many sets of eyes turned to Grace, scowling. Low growls from my wolf along with Zaryn's filled the room which had Grace shrinking, hands going over her flat belly out of instinct.

"Enough you two!" Alpha barked, showing teeth. I sank back in my chair, deciding its best to let him continue. I can react after i know everything there is to know.

"Alpha Conrad has called me to let me know that if Zaryn doesn't mark Grace after the baby is born, that he will seek retribution. He doesn't want just unmated females, he wants pack land. 100 plows. That is 1/3 of what we now have. We cant afford to lose both land and females and im sorry but she brought this amongst us and i cant do anything. My hands are tied on this. If i go against it, the pack loses everything. And if i don't, then Zaryn may be challenged when he succeeds me ... its all one huge fucking mess . Do you think i want to deal with this?

but Zaryn, Nova.. the other demand is that you two must stay away from each other aside from pack functions. Any reported incidents to me will be punishable by the pole and im sorry but.. your wolves will come out around each other and we could have another pregancy on our hands .. or a mating mark, which would only complicate things." He looked down at the table as my eyes bulged out of my head at the way he just brushed everything off.

I wouldnt let myself be with Zaryn.. but being around him.. it makes me feel at peace. Those shards of my broken heart dont seem to lodge into my organs trying to get out. Instead, they move... trying to go back to the place they belong.

This couldnt be happening to me... to stay away from him??

That would only allow their bond to grow.

He might not even want me anymore then.. im not saying i want him now anyways but without her.. there was always a possibility. Mates are a gift from the moon.

The wolf inside me.. she was angry.. incredibly angry. She wanted out. She wanted revenge. She wanted to take out the competition with her powerful jaws.

I felt my eyes shift first. She was seeing out of my eyes.

My shattered shards of the heart i once had lodged deep, i took in lung fulls of air, feeling like glass was crunching in my lungs.

I couldn't breathe. The sorrow was indescribable. I felt as if my own life were being threatened.. as if i were dying. My wolf whined through my own mouth at my feelings. But her feelings were something more.

I felt myself choke on my own mate bond, eyes wide with my wolf's eyes while I was seeing stars, the room around me becoming hazy before darkness met me, overcoming my vision making it impossible to see. All i could hear was the faint shouting of angry wolves in the background while I dove into the dark abyss head first.