Nova

The wind blew lightly through the moonlit trees.. rain was coming soon. My wolf was eager to meet her mate in his true form, as she knew my predicament of wanting to rush the situation. But she always won somehow.

She yipped, letting him know she noticed him and he could approach. I felt warry in the back of our mind.. he shouldn't be here. But the wolf side wasnt thinking that way. She wanted to meet her mate's wolf.

He carefully slinked out of the shadows. His wolf was large. A full grown adult alpha male with a juvenile for a mate. We were much smaller than he. He sank low to the ground, Pressing his belly onto the clover covered earth, paws forward. He used his hind legs to push himself inch by inch towards her.. stretching himself before shaking his fur out.. approaching slowly.

He eased toward her purposefully and pressed his side into hers, bumping bodies as he rubbed her scent into him... she sat very still, letting her mate introduce himself. He turned, rubbing the other side while his muzzle pressed into her scruff, sniffing. She did the same. She liked the masculine scent he held. Woodsy.. like sandalwood and earth.

She rolled over onto her back, submitting to.his more dominant wolf.. allowing him to sniff her belly, rubbing his face into the fur before he put his nose between her legs, sniffing, checking for traces of another male wolf.

There was none.

His wolf expressed his contentment at this fact with deep rumbles from his chest.

Her face came back to his and she licked his muzzle before he noticed the blood on hers. Tasting it, he realized it was a deer and fresh at that. He took the time, cleaning her fur with his tongue. Licking off all the left over blood she couldnt reach from her trophy kill.

Moments later he was lying on the ground, belly up.. not in submission but to allow her to press her scent in and smell him. Her nose ran down the length of his body... rubbing her scent on him as she went..

She then did something out of the norm. She stretched in front of him.. with her rear end near his head... chest to the ground.. pressing her hind legs up so her rump stood proudly, tail up. Alowing him access.

I screamed inside for her to stop, this was too soon. They just met.. even as pups we never really had close contact in wolf form. but she wouldnt listen. He crept behind her, paws going under her belly to hold as he reared up, mounting her, ready to put himself inside her. This never happened until after the mating in skin form. You didn't go backwards. It was unheard of.

I wasn't going through my heat yet... so i couldnt get pregnant. But i wouldn't become pregnant in wolf form anyways. Nor would my virtue be taken... but my wolf's would. Any other wolves around mine would know that.

Just before he got ready to thrust, i shoved my wolf back as she expressed her anger. Fur shrank into each pore as my skin dispersed, bones crackling, shifting into human form before collapsing on the ground with a huff... feeling the fur of Zaryn's wolf against the back of my thighs as I lay there, trying to calm myself... my cheeks clenching together. His wolf wouldn't attempt a thing while i was in skin.

It was different.. as mates.. your human sides have the relationship.. as the wolves have a relationship. But one mate in wolf form, the other in human.. it was more of a respect. More of a bond of sorts. The wolf side always felt love and protection towars their mate's human side..

Zaryn's wolf whined in a high pitch tone due to the fact he lost his chance with her. I chuckle surpassed my lips as i lie on my stomach, hiding myself. Bones crackling behind me alerted me that he was shifting now.. moments later, Zaryn was moving beside me.. lying on his stomach next to me.

I felt the warmth rise in my cheeks, feeling his skin so close to mine.. the static that sparked between us seemed as if it was pulling us to touch. I lifted my head slowly, eyes catching his. The corner of his mouth rose on one side, displaying a small smile as he cleared his throat.

"Sorry about that.. he just..-" he began before i cut him off.

"Its okay. She wouldn't let me shift." I admitted embarrassingly. "You shouldnt be here Zaryn." I glanced away, paying special attention to the clovers beneath me, bringing my hands up to rest in front of me so i could push up and lean on my elbows, my breasts grazing the grass oh so slightly.

I heard him sigh deeply. "I know Nova. But no one is going to come looking for us. Not tonight. Everyone is too wrapped up in their sadness.."

My mouth fell open as i turned to gape at him. "That's not the only reason you shouldn't be here! Don't you have a pup to worry about? I appreciate you vocalizing your desire for me and not Grace but.. its not good for me to be around you. It's only going to make it harder for me. Is that what you want? For me to cry myself to sleep at night because the one wolf meant for me is the one wolf i cant be with!?" I asked incredulously.

His eyes lowered to the ground. "I just wanted to spend one last evening with you.. if you'd let me. Just to talk." His words were soft and sorrowful. I peered back up at him to see his blue eyes shining beneath the full moon, staring at me with hope. A need coming from him i couldnt describe.

He is always able to sway me. Always. "Do you not care about how i feel Zaryn?"

He shot me a frown, surprise etched on his perfect face. "Are you serious Nova? Of course i do. We may not be bonded, but i feel it when you hurt. Those waves of nausea you get sometimes.. arent just your own. They are my feelings seeping into your soul as well..." He rasped, his voice holding pain.

I contemplated that..

He really did tell the entire pack he didn't want Grace, he wanted me. But what Nic had said...

"Zaryn did you really not sense her heat?"

His blue orbs locked with mine instantly... more pain. More sadness. More guilt. "No. I didnt. Not the whole night until it just hit her in an instant. It hit me too. My wolf and i were on the same page about waiting.. for you.. but we couldn't control it once it hit ."

My mind flooded with thoughts..

Should i relent? Give him one more night? A goodbye of sorts? Just talking.. nothing more... it wouldn't hurt so badly if we just talked.

"Okay" my words were barely audible. My aching heart stopped throbbing when he was around.

One more time, i told myself.

The last time.

Just one last time to be with him. My heart needs the break.

Smiling sadly, he pushed himself off the ground and pulled his legs up to sit down on the grass. My eyes roved over his glorious naked body.. muscles that called for me to touch them. Glancing downward, i saw the very obvious sign of his excitment he still had from our wolves' near encounter. It was extremely hard to miss. Im glad it was dark because im sure my face was beet red at the moment.

His eyes caught mine with that sly smirk and i turned my head away swiflty, embarassed at being caught.

I sputtered while he chuckled at my shyness.

"Sorry Nova.. " he laughed a bit. "Kinda hard when you are sitting naked next to your mate." Laughter in his tone had me giggling as well.

I felt care free right here. The happiest ive been.. is with him. Always with him. Those feelings i get inside.. the body shock.. the sensations.. the distractions were always welcome.

"So umm..." i couldnt help but to peer back over at his body beneath my lashes. He was a gorgeous specimen..

"Its okay Nova. You can look. Dont be shy.. we are mates. Whether we can't be together right now or not, im not going anywhere. Im yours. Look all you want. Familiarize yourself. But i know one thing.. i can't ever take my eyes off you. I wont lie.. Even when it doesnt seem like im looking..im looking." He grinned down at me, that handsome face that would break a million hearts.. he really was the sexiest guy ive ever seen in my life.

My eyes rolled with his bluntness but i swelled up inside with confidence.

And then i looked. Again.

"Okay Zaryn. Do you have any clothes stashed around here? Cas im not going to sit with you naked all evening.." i tried my best to keep from smirking.

His features softened and a hand caressed my cheek gently. "You are even more beautiful when you smile." He smiled back in return. "Come on." Getting up from his spot, he took my hand, lifting me along with him.