Turning my head to see the profile of his face, "Nic. You need to go see Alpha Blake."

His head turned, green eyes meeting my own. "Oh I plan to. Just not yet. I need to wait until I'm feeling a little more stable before I venture off to that checklist." His eyes floated up to the ceiling, a far off look in them.

We just lay there in silence, holding hands as the sun crept overhead, filling the room with warmth from the inside out, not saying a word. Like nothing mattered.

After about an hour, my stomach started to growl so Nic kicked me out and told me to go eat and enjoy the day... That he needed time alone. He was glad I came by though. I decided to skip pack lunch since Alpha Blake, Zaryn and Deacon would be there. instead, I raided my parents fridge.

I settled on a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, forcing myself to eat. Zaryn had been right..my body was withering away. He was still attracted to me but I needed to put more meat on myself. I've lost nearly 25 pounds and I never needed to.

Just as I finished the sandwich, the front door opened. Mom stood there staring at me with a blank expression. I could taste fear, guilt, and sorrow from her.

"Mom? What's wrong ?" My brows knitted together as I approached her. Closing the door, she put on a fake smile and pulled me into her arms with a shaky sigh.

"Its nothing baby girl. I'm just .. So worked up about what's happening to you and Nic. Your father has been in a terrible mood and I don't think he will last too much longer before he snaps. He is pushing Alpha Blake to make his son do the right thing but what your father doesn't understand, is that he is." She smiled sadly before releasing me as she rubbed her eyes with a yawn.

Mom must have been up all night with dad, Alpha Blake and Luna Penelope.. Figuring out what to do about her pups' situation.

"Mom go get some sleep. I was just leaving. I doubt Nic wants to be bothered but you can check on him. I love you." I kissed her cheek before walking out the door. She seemed so sad.. It felt as though her heart was breaking along with ours. But she shouldn't feel guilty. That's one thing she should never feel.

Kicking up dirt and watching it spread through beams of light, I meandered down the dirt road, coming into the field of grass by the pack house. I couldn't think of anything to do.. I didn't have any friends.. Except Deacon.. Who I couldn't even see publicly because of the ban by Alpha Blake. It was beginning to make me mad... Not that I wasn't mad already.

I knew where Deacon would go though..

Our spot.

A smile crossed my lips and I picked up the pace, heading for the other side of the woods and up to the cliffs. I knew he would be there. I knew no one else would ever go there...

Except Zaryn...

We had to be careful not to get caught. I didn't so much mind Zaryn knowing I was seeing my best friend but I didn't want another fight.. And Alpha Blake would have to punish me for going against his direct order ..

The turmoil in my gut was coming to a slow halt as my stomach digested the nutrients I gave it.. A smile spread slowly on my face as I smelled Deacon's scent coming closer up the side of the cliffs in the forrest.

So close.

My wolf was yipping at me in my head as I ran full speed up to the stream at the top, smelling Deacon fully now. He was here.

"Deacon?" I was out of breath from the run, panting with hands on my knees as my weak body tried to regain composure.

"Nova" his voice echoed from behind me and I whipped around to see him standing there with a tight smile on his face. His eyes were soft though.

Without another thought, I ran, leaping into his arms. When I felt his arms finally surround me, I couldn't control my pent up emotions and the dam burst. I sobbed into his shoulder but he just soothed me with his words as a hand slowly rubbed my back , comforting me.

"Hey hey. Don't cry. What's the matter Nova?" His warm breath spread over my neck. I pulled back, wiping my eyes. Shaking my head, I look at the ground between us as a tight smile made its way to my lips.

"I'm just.. I just.. I just font know anymore Deacon. Everything is so messed up and I hate not being able to see you.." My voice broke at the end.

He let out a huff of breath as my eyes found his baby blue ones. "Me too. I think its shit that my dad is doing what Zaryn wants.. Its not fair to me or you. He's the unpredictable one .. He should be locked away, not you. Actually he should be punished for this crime he's committed against you." His eyes hardened.

Zaryn would have been punished if it was with another she wolf from our pack. Each pack has different laws but as a whole, wolves had laws to abide by that were set for everyone. The crime he committed, mating with another female, wasn't tolerated in our pack but it wasn't such a big deal in others. Those packs are ran with poison.

"Nova.. I probably shouldn't be here.. I know its wrong of me to seek you out but I needed to see you. I don't want you to get in trouble though. I probably need to go.."

He made to walk away but I grabbed his arm, halting him.

"Wait. When I spoke with your dad.. He said as long as I didn't get caught seeing you that it was fine. But if I got caught I would have to face the consequences.. We're fine here."

Just saying that made my blood boil.. My wolf bristled slightly at my anger.

To think my wolf let our mate touch us when he's done this .. Gotten my best friend banned from seeing me.. All I felt right now is anger at him.. I pray he doesn't come near me again.. But at the same time, I can't help but to think about this morning.

Deacon gave me a grin. "Let's talk then.. Shall we?" He turned away, walking through streams of sunlight toward the waters edge to sit down on our favorite rock. Flat and smooth, large enough for four people. it held the chilled earth inside of its stone, cooling our legs as we sat by the trickling stream.

"Have you eaten today? You're wasting away.." His eyes trailed over my legs with a frown.

Rolling my eyes, I nodded. "Yes dad. Peanut butter and jelly. Did you hear about what happened last night at the party?" I glanced at him, his lips in a thin line.

"Yeah. I did. Grace is your brothers mate.. I feel bad for him Nova. That female is poison. I can feel it. Something about her isn't right. How can she be mated to your brother when she is supposed to be the alpha's daughter? That isn't supposed to happen. Unless the moon has a special plan for her..." He trailed off thinking.

I let my fingers sink in the clovers behind me as I leaned back on my elbows, feeling the sun stream through the small spaces of the trees' canopy onto my face, warming me.