The moment I stepped in, he realized My anger and sorrow as well.

I glanced down at his bandaged form..neither brother had any horrible fatal wounds. They would be If the doc hadn't intervened but not so much now. His blue orbs softened as my body wracked with sobs..

"We had a moment. And... Its been approved by your dad that I not see you anymore " my voice was weak as I broke down on the chair next to him, hiding my face in my hands as complete misery enveloped me.

I had no one but family now..

No friend. No mate. I was being cast aside..

His anger rose. "That's bullshit!" He pulled me into him, arms wrapping around me

"Deacon the bond was too strong for me not to see him. He told me he asked your dad to allow our separation for his wolf .. For you guys safety... The packs sanity.. And for . for the pups safety because of Grace." I sobbed .

I felt him bristle, jaw clenching. "I'll speak to my father about this Nova."

I shook my head. "Don't. It will just cause more trouble "

Anger rolled through, his muscles bunching in his arms. "I'll take care of this. Don't worry. But... Why do you smell of arousal?" His jaw clenched as he leaned back to study me.

My face turned a deep red but Deacon was always so blunt.

"I-i had a moment. Our wolves came out."

He nodded in understanding but still displeased.

Breaking away, I wiped my tears for the millionth time today. "How are you feeling?"

Sighing , he glanced away at me... Hurt crossing his features. "I'll be ok I'm just not healing right. Its not normal. But Nova... What are you going to do about Zaryn? You can't be with him while this is going on. You need me to be there for you." His voice pleaded with me...

Shaking my head, I sighed. "I won't be with him. Our bond is strong so I have to stay away from him on my own accord. You can't disobey your father's orders and neither can I.. I guess I'll just.. Be with my family and watch. Watch everyone be happy " a tear made its way down my face again.

He pressed the pad of his thumb down, wiping it away as he studied me with determined blue copy cat eyes. "I wont stay away. We can sneak off but I won't leave you alone " he spoke the truth.

"You'll be punished Deacon." My throat hurt from crying So much... All this burden placed on a mere seventeen year old juvenile.. Leaving me without hope .

After a while of our talking , Deacon informed me I needed to go get Zaryn's scent off of me so that's when u left, my tears long gone but heart ache weighing me down...

I wanted to crumble..

I felt torn.. Shredded.. All from this female who showed up on our pack with my mates pup in her belly. Their future....

I made my way down the dirt road. It was already 9pm.. The moonlight overhead was giving way to a shorter day... Flicking light through the tree's canopy overhead as I trudged on.

I should hate Zaryn for what he's done.. His request. But I couldnt. I couldn't find it in me to hate him, be angry, yes. But to hate him I couldn't do that.

My Broken Heart crumbled even further with each step that I took bringing me closer to the pack house. I passed my parents home on the way down the road seeing their lights were still on. I thought about stopping for a bit to talk but the shattered heart inside my chest pulled me towards the pack house where my sanctuary lie. all I wanted to do right this moment was curl up in my bed and cry letting my tears Soothe me into a deep sleep... Hopefully I wouldn't wake up. If I did, maybe it would all be a nightmare.

I know my brother was coming home tomorrow,half of me was excited but the other half was full of dread knowing that his friendship with Zaryn was going to complicate things further with this whole situation. Nic wouldn't let him get away with hurting his baby sister.

I crept through the back door of the pack house sliding my way through the mud room and quietly crept up the back stairs to the third floor. entering my room I shut the door and locked it, throwing myself under the blankets relishing the scent of my mate on my skin. maybe I would get some sort of satisfaction just smelling his scent on me. Maybe I would be able to sleep without having any nightmares tonight but I knew I would have to wash this pleasing scent off of me as soon as I woke so no one would ask questions..

Still in my clothes, I let the pain surge through me.. Taking every bit of pride and strong will away as I tried to restrain from crying myself to sleep... Clutching my midsection to keep the nausea at bay. His smell comforted me but it also made me feel even more broken knowing I couldn't have him ...

The cell phone on my nightstand dinged. Wolves never use cell phones unless you're an unranked member like us juveniles as a way for the pack to communicate with us.

I opened it ...

From: Alpha BlakeCome see me after your visit with your family. We all need to talk.

Anxiety crept inside me. This had to be bad for him to send a message to me this late at night.

Dread washed over me, taking me with it until I could no longer cry.